"Tired of Bullshit:" A Note Pending

Dear The Teacher,

WHAT THE FUCK ARE WE DOING? Where is this going? huh? Riddle me that!

So we fell into this "are you coming over tonight?" kinda thing where this question is actually asked by me almost every time. I did ask you what you wanted from me not too long ago and your answer was some bullshit like "I want to know you personally and see what happens from there". What does that really mean? Had I already been categorized in the "not interested in a relationship with" section? Are you not man enough to say "i'm not really interested in you, I just want somebody to screw"?

Now I want more and i'm left wondering whether you want anything. You're not making the effort. You spend your time out of town and I'm left with a random night. So it should be enough that we sleep over each other's place huh? Watch a movie once in a while? I should be satisfied with that? Don't you want more? I KNOW I'm worthy of more but fear holds me back from asking you that out loud. But I really want to know. I cant do the wondering thing anymore.

Where are you now? You went out of town AGAIN! I wonder what "friends" you're visiting this time. Must be nice. You cant even take a minute to text and say Hi. Oh that's right! You're probably waiting for me to ask how you're doing since you're supposedly so "sick". Uh huh, I believe you. You had a fever but yet woke up mighty early the next day and drove out of town. Tell me anything!

Wait! Hold up! Why am I even tripping? We have a TXT-ship! Why didnt I think of that before? We don't even talk on the phone, we txt..albeit every day...almost all day, might i add but a txt-ship nonetheless. It's been like 2 months of that tho, doesn't that count for something? Doesn't that mean anything to you?

I want to know: what the fuck are we doing? Is this going anywhere?

Simple huh?

-Tired of bullshit